too soon...

9 days...
But I can never figure out what I'm feeling exactly.
Torn apart.
The worst I've ever felt.
Now I wonder if I deserve this pressure.

Why must I go through all this?
Why can't time just stop when I'm in the middle?
Why must making this choice be so hard?

I really missed those years that I never treasured.
Those years where I never had to make a hard choice at all.
Years that I rarely made choices that changed my life.
In fact, years that I never made choices to change my life.

God of Wonders
Lord of all creation
Of water, earth and sky
The heavens are your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will lift Your name by night

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy

How I miss praise and worship sessions.
Really hope to have one soon...
I miss a lot now but I know I'll miss a lot later too.

Signing off,
Messed-up