Sunday, August 31, 2008

zzz

For the sake of CLARICE YONG HUI MIN, I have translated all my chinese posts for her comprehension. I hope she appreciates the trouble I have gone through just to please her.

Friday, August 29, 2008

七个小时。。。

亚纶就会到台上表演了。
我真的想看他的表演。
真的希望飞轮海晖来到温哥华开演唱会哦!
也许棒棒堂也会来!
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!
我好想我最好最好的朋友!
希望你现在跟朋友们在澳洲很开心很快乐!
现在不要像学校的压力。
好了,我要看电影了。
拜拜!

啊!忘了跟Zenia讲,我有个加拿大的朋友也很喜欢王子哦!

-Translation-
Ya Lun will be on stage performing.
I really want to see him perform.
Really wish that Fahrenheit Fei Lun Hai will hold a concert in Vancouver!
Maybe Lollipop Bang Bang Tang will also come!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I really miss my best friend!
Hope she is having fun in Australia with her group of friends now!
Don't think of the stress from school now.
Ok, I'm going to watch my movie now.
Bye!

Ahh! I forgot to tell Zenia, I've got a friend here who also really really likes Wang Zi!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

多二十五个小时。。。

。。。他就会来。
我没希望看他了。
-----------------
我听了小煜说他在棒棒堂里没觉得很快乐。
那我问过自己,我倒地快步快乐呢?
我想了很久,可是还找不到答案。
这是什么意识呢?
我也不知道。
我听小煜说他每次跟爸爸说他没事,很快乐。
可是回到家时,他真的不知道自己快步快乐。
我就问过自己,我是不是跟小煜一样?
每次跟家人说在这很快乐,可是不知道是真的快乐,还是假的快乐。
我最讨厌人家问我在这里快不快乐,因为我每次说快乐可是我一回家就想到头痛或是让我想念家人而哭起来了。
那我这样子怎么继续幸福的活着呢?
算了,如果我知道我快不快乐,我会跟大家说一下。
我要去看节目了。
拜拜!

-Translation-
...and he will be coming.
I have no hope of seeing him.
-----------------
I heard Xiao Yu say that he doesn't feel all that happy in Lollipop Bang Bang Tang.
Then I asked myself, am I really happy?
I thought for a long time, but still couldn't find the answer.
What does this mean?
I really don't know either.
I heard Xiao Yu sat that he keeps telling his father that everything is fine.
But when he goes back home, he doesn't know if he is happy or not.
So I asked myself, am I like Xiao Yu?
I keep telling everyone I am happy, but I don't know if I'm really happy, or just putting up a cheerful front.
I really hate people asking me if I'm happy here, because everytime I say I am, but when I get home, I think till my head hurts or until I miss home and start crying.
If so, how am I suppose to continue a happy life?
Forget it, when I find out if I'm happy, I'll tell you my response.
I'm going to watch my shows now.
Bye!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

炎亚纶!
我要去MICHAEL J FOX THEATRE听你的声音!
我要气死了!
上个星期才知道你跟亦儒来表演!

-Translation-
Yan Ya Lun!
I want to go to the Michael J Fox Theatre to listen to your voice!
I want to die of anger!
I just found out last week that you and Calvin are coming to perform!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

I want to SCREAM!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I can't believe that ARRON YAN YA LUN is coming for the Sunshine Nation thing with Calvin and I didn't even know!!!
AHHHH!!!!
I missed my chance of seeing him!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO PISSED!!!!!
YA LUN!!!!
I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM MISSING THIS CHANCE!!!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!
btw, i'm somewhere near jasper right now...
on the way to rockies xD
BUT I'M STIL SO PISSED!!!!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

tagged...

...by Amanda Yip

A) people who have been tagged must write their answer on their blog.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person
whom they were tagged by
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

01. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
hmm...i think it'll be tears...haven't really experienced betrayal.

02. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Either meeting all the 台湾艺人 that i like, or being able to be in two places at once.

03. What will you want your dream wedding to be like?
Never thought about it...

04. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
YES! Definately! Don't even know where my future will be...

05. What's your ideal lover like?
Hmm...he must never put on a fake front for sure. Must be able to be trusted, have a sense of humour, be able to stand my very super short temper, be understanding, etc. I'm super picky.

06. Which is more blessed?
JESUS CHRIST THE LAMB OF GOD WHO TOOK AWAY THE SINS FROM THE WORLD!

07. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Either until I feel that I'd rather be friends or when they find their partner who makes them happy.

08. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Just hope they are happy.

09. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yup. Saturday, 16th August 2008.

10. Is being tagged fun?
Parts of it. Some questions are nice, some are stupid.

11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
With neices and nephews around me but no children xD

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family, AMANDA YIP, JOAN SEAH, KATHRYN CRUZ, ANDREA MESANA, and many other friends

13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Perfect in my eyes, she just needs to not look down on herself and 加油!

14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
Married but poor, as long as it's a great marriage. Nothing beats having your loved ones around you.

15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Get out of my bed.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
I guess. Unless I really don't feel like we belong.

17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
None. There should only be one true love.

18. What type of friends do you like?
Loyal, trust-worthy, patient (unlike me), honest, polite, true friends.

19. What type of friends do you dislike?
Unfaithful, not trust-worthy, dishonest, rude people.


You've been tagged by me:
1) Joan
2) Clara
3) Clarice
4) Zenia
5) Marissa
6) Kathryn
7) Monica
8) Colleen

我回来了!

我已经到家了。
觉得有点开心,可是也有点伤心。。。
我还以为不会这样。。。
以为会多点开心,可以陪妈妈多一点。
可是我很期待去上学。
真的觉得家里很闷。
但是我们一家人要去Banff了。
大哥明天要来了!
我星期六刚刚看到它,可是还期待她来到这里。
好了,我该睡个觉啦。
现在已经是十一点多了。。。
拜拜!晚安!

-Translation-
I have already reached home.
Feeling really happy, but I'm also sad...
I thought it wouldn't be like this...
I thought I would be happy, because I could be with Mom more.
But I really can't wait for school to start.
I feel really bored at home.
But, we're going to Banff as a family really soon.
My big brother is coming tomorrow!
I just saw him on Saturday, but I'm still eager for him to come here.
Ok, I should go to sleep.
It's already past 11pm now.
Bye! Night!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

自己的心情

我分不清楚自己的心情。
我到底是想留下还是想离开我也不知道。
留下的话,我那边的朋友和家人怎么办?
我走的话,我这边的朋友和家人怎么办?
谁可以帮我解决这个问题啊?
我真的觉得很烦。
我现在怎么办?
留下来有错。
走也有错。
到底要做什么才是对呢?
我真地想知道。
可是没人可以告诉我怎么做才好。
真的分不清楚自己的心情了。
也分不清出什么才是对,什么才是错。
有没有人想告诉我答案呢?

好了。我想睡了。晚安!

P.S. 谢谢Zenia姐教我怎么打华文字!真的要谢你哦!拜拜!

-Translation-
I really can't tell my feelings apart.
I don't know if I want to stay or go back.
If I stay, what about my friends over there?
If I go, what about my friends over here?
Who can help me solve this problem?
I really feel troubled.
What should I do now?
Staying is wrong.
Leaving is also wrong.
What can I do that is right?
I really want to know.
But no one can tell me what's the best thing to do.
Really can't understand what I'm feeling.
And I also can't tell what's right and what's wrong.
Is there anyone who wishes to tell my the answer?

P.S. Thank you Zenia for teaching me how to type chinese words!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

4 days...

...before leaving.
Can't explain this feeling.
A feeling of happiness but yet, a feeling a sadness.
I love it, yet I hate it.
Can't even find the words to explain what I'm experiencing.

Friday, 8th August
Ok, so I got up and ate lunch almost immediately. That's how late I woke up. Yeah.

So I started making the oreo base. So I finished up the crushing and I melted and mixed it. Then I started to pre-heat the oven and was about to cut the cheese blocks and put them in the mixer only to find that I was holding icing sugar in my hand and not caster sugar. So I turned the oven off and wrapped the blocks back up. Then, I ran to NTUC at central because I just missed the bus. So then I took 15 minutes to find the stupid sugar because I was just too blind. I realised it was practically in front of me. Yeah. So then I went to wait for the bus and then when I got off, I ran all the way in.

So I started to pre-heat the oven again and cut the blocks up. So after heating the oven, I started to bake the base. Recipe says 10 minutes at 400 so that's how long I left it in there while I used the beater to mix the cheese, sugar, and eggs. Then after 10 minutes, I took the base out. ONLY TO FIND IT BURNT! The worst part was that because the cookies started off black, I couldn't tell if it was done when it was in the oven.

Ok, so I was thinking to myself 'It's fine. That's just the base.' So I mixed the batter and added the cookies and poured it into the springform pan, only to find the batter just at the brim of the pan. So I told myself 'It's ok. the cake wouldn't rise that much.' So I started to bake the cake and instructions said 60 minutes at 400.

Then I started to boil water to soak the mixing bowl and the 'K' beater. Then my sister calls and asks me to help her find a Shepherd's Pie recipe for her. So I was like 'Ok, I've still got 45 minutes before the cake is baked.' Or so I thought. So I started to get the recipe and called my sister to give it to her. Then our mom came on MSN so I decided to ask her for the recipe she uses. Then, after I got the recipe, my sister asked me to help her measure how much beef she should cook for the potluck and how many potatoes she should mash. So I decided to be a nice sister and do that.

So I measured everything, converted it, and called my sister to tell her. Then I went to check the cake 45 minutes into baking to find it not white with a little brown (like it was supposed to be), but instead, ALL brown. I was so pissed at myself. So then I found out from my sister that night that the oven is a turbo oven and cooks faster. I was thinking to myself 'Yeah, sure. Tell me only after I bake and not say anything when I asked about the oven.' So I was like 'Forget it. It's still very edible.' And it was. My cousins said so.

Then I had to transfer the cake from the pan to a plate. So I took the rim off and tried to get the cake off the base. Then I saw that the cake was surrounding the whole edge of the base so there was no way I could get it off without 'hurting' the cake. So I was a little 心疼 to 'hurt' it but I ended up doing it.

So that was my hectic and Frustrating Friday.

Saturday, 9th August a.k.a. Singapore's birthday
Ok, so I slept early on Friday because I was super tired and frustrated. So I got up early, being unable to sleep any longer. So I was up before my sister and second brother. Not very often that this happens but yeah. So then I started to find something to bring my cake in to the potluck.

Then after I found it, my sister, who got up not long after I did, was asking me to bake HER shepherd's pie. So I asked her why and she said she wanted to study. So I was thinking 'It wouldn't hurt to help.' So I had to go early with my brother to bake it. When she said bake it, I thought she meant she'll tell me what to do. So I was waiting for her to tell me where she put the stuff and the recipe. Then I waited until lunch, only to find that she already left the house. So I called her and asked her where she put all the food and the recipe. Her response was 'I don't have the recipe. You need to go and buy the potatoes, carrots, onion, and garlic from NTUC.'

I was freaking pissed at her when I heard that. So I was rushing because we were suppose to get to my aunt's around 4pm. So then I remembered that she didn't have the recipe. I started to think to myself, why the heck didn't she write it down when I told her over the phone? She claimed to be studying at church when I told her the recipe so she was bound to have a pen and paper in front of her. And if she knew she wouldn't really remember it, why didn't she write it down? So then I wrecked my brain trying to remember what my mom told me.

So when I went to my aunt's house to cook it, I just did it from memory and I knew it wasn't very good. But you couldn't blame me. So I spent the whole afternoon preparing and cooking the beef. Then the potluck, my sister was telling me that the beef was very blend.


So I just didn't really care about that. Then we had karaoke. I sang 'At the Beginning' with Val, 'Dancing Queen' with Vanessa, 'Beauty and the Beast' and 'Colours of the Wind' with Celeste, 'Super Star' and '當你孤單你會想起誰' by myself. I think that was all I sang. Can't really remember. Then we left the house around 11.30pm. Yeah, then we got home about 12++.

Sunday, 10th August
Ok, got up early so that I could shower before mass. I mean early as in 4.30am early. To think I slept around 1am. Then we left for church same as last week. After mass was breakfast, cat class, and then I met Amanda. Ok, so at the end of cat class, I started taking pictures of Kimberly, Carissa, Bernadette, Jeanette, Herman, and myself. Then I found out from Val that she was going to open the room at 2pm. So after class, I went to meet Amanda at Risen Christ after the 11.30pm mass. So then her parents gave us a ride to TPC and we had lunch at Mos Burger and we were super high.

Then we went back to church after that and we found out that the room was already open so we went in and studied. Then at 3pm, we walked to the entertainment centre because Dwanye claimed he was leaving his house around 3.15pm. So we went arcade and played basketball, bishi bashi, and para para. Then we were playing there until 4.45pm because we were STILL waiting for him. He finally came and then we started to walk back to church. Then when Amanda went to buy bubble tea, he went upstairs to LAN just to 'check if anyone was playing'. Then we said we were only waiting for 5 minutes before we'll leave him behind. Not long after he went up, he called to say that we could go first because his game is already starting. We were so pissed. Oh then we were about to go back to the room but we were told it was locked. So we went into the room Val was in.

Ok, so we were staying in that room for a while. Then Sam was asking if we wanted to go back to the room to study and we said no. Then she was telling us must study. So she asked us to go back down to the room with her then we can study too. So we decided ok la, we'll just study. Then after a while we realised it was already 6pm and Amanda and I had to go home very soon. Then Amanda came up with the idea of me sleeping over at her place. So I called my dad and he allowed!

So went home, ate dinner, packed my things, and then I left and met Amanda at Risen Christ. Then we stayed there for a while talking to people there, then after that we walked to her house. Then when we reached, the first thing we did was go on the computer. Lol. Then after that we played monopoly when we had nothing else to do. We were practically buying everything that we were landing on. Haha. Then we started to buy houses and eventually hotels. Quite a crazy game of exchanging money between the two of us. Haha. Was a very high game. We were for some odd reason very high that day lor. Yeah, then we went to sleep at about 1+ in the morning or maybe even 2++.

Monday, 11th August

Ok, so we woke up about 8.30am around that. Then we played the computer again and I played her cornet! Long time never play already! Haha but I could only play one octave. So sad...can't play anymore. Oh well. Then we started to get ready and we had breakfast. Then at about 11.30am we left her house and started to walk to TPC and take train to Raffles City and meet Dorothy there. Then at 11.40am, Dorothy called me saying that she'll be late because her brother was making her wait. So when we met, we went to eat Subway in the basement. Then we were talking about school and life. Oh, and because Chloe couldn't come, Dorothy was telling us about how our innocent-looking cute friend wasn't as innocent as we thought. Dory found out when they started talking about our P6 HB performance and how Mdm Lim just didn't wait for Chloe and started the song.

So Chloe still holds this grudge against her and as they were talking about it, our dear Chloe was just swearing, not the horrible ones but still swearing. And according to Dory, it's hilarious seeing such an innocent girl swear like that in the middle of a conversation. Haha. Amanda and I were trying to imagine it and we just couldn't stop laughing.

Then after lunch we started to walk around the mall, but we went into everyshop and always came out empty-handed. That place if freaking pricey! But then again, the designs on the stuff were super nice! Oh well. Then we went for Ben&Jerry's in the basement and we were getting high all over again. Haha. We talked about super random stuff. Then after that we went to Suntec City and we walked by the Zip It push cart and Amanda and I just had to but those pouches. It's so cool! I got a handphone pouch and Amanda got the pencil case. Then because we wanted our names on it, we had to wait 30mins before we could collect it. So we went arcade.

Then at arcade, we played basketball, bishi bashi, this game where you had to throw balls at the screen and kill stuff, and DDR. Haha. Amanda's pro at it. She's pro at para para and DDR. So we were talking about mixing DDR and para together to make an actual dance. Because para used hand movements and DDR uses steps. So combining them would give you a full dance. Lol.

Then after that Dory had to go home, so Amanda and I went to church again. We always go there when we've got nothing to do xD. Then started to stone at the steps for a while. Then we went to the kopitiam opposite and ate jap food. Then after that, we went back to church, only to find out that everyone else went just went for dinner. So we stoned at the steps again. Then when they came back, we were so tired that we didn't bother going up anymore and just stayed where we were. So then around 8.15pm we left church and walked back to Amanda's house. Then I went to get my stuff and went home from there.

So that was the busy but fun-packed weekend I had.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

too soon...

9 days...
But I can never figure out what I'm feeling exactly.
Torn apart.
The worst I've ever felt.
Now I wonder if I deserve this pressure.

Why must I go through all this?
Why can't time just stop when I'm in the middle?
Why must making this choice be so hard?

I really missed those years that I never treasured.
Those years where I never had to make a hard choice at all.
Years that I rarely made choices that changed my life.
In fact, years that I never made choices to change my life.

God of Wonders
Lord of all creation
Of water, earth and sky
The heavens are your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will lift Your name by night

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy
God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy

How I miss praise and worship sessions.
Really hope to have one soon...
I miss a lot now but I know I'll miss a lot later too.

Signing off,
Messed-up

Monday, August 04, 2008

a year? or two?

It's been a year,
But it feels like eternity.
Mysteriously, the two years,
It feels like two days.

A year since I left. Two since a memorable trip. This is the truth.
Two days since a memorable trip. An eternity since I left. This is what it feels like.
Life is misery without love.
Life is depression without true friends.
Life is pointless without you around.

But You never left.
You were always with me.
You're my everything.
I can't live without You.
You once said:" I am the way, the truth, and the light. He who believes in me shall have eternal life."

Thanks for everything that happened and everything that's about to.

Friday, August 01, 2008

A dedication to my friends.

Hey. I just wanted to post this song specially for my friends. Just realised that I only have 14 days and 14 hours left in the country. I've been listening to this song for so long but never really took the time to understand the lyrics. I just realised that the lyrics say what I want to say.



Lyrics:

这一段时间有着什么样的画面
喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面
发现每一页全都是经典
所有故事都值得纪念

现实的考验我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念

我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点会发现
所有的心愿会实现

现实的考验我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念

我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点会发现
所有的心愿会实现